Lucky Girl!

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The Crib

Okay so we struggled a little to get the crib together. At this point Chris just wanted me to walk away. Photobucket

Its not quite finished but its a start!

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Emery's Room

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Monday, April 19, 2010

Life

It has been two years since I was diagnosed with endometriosis, and two years since we started the adoption process. It has been an eventful road that God has led Chris and I down but also an amazing one.

As a child, you imagine what your life will look like; who will you marry, what will your children look like, what kind of career will you have. In all honesty, I did not imagine that this would be my life and this would be the journey that God would take Chris and I on. I married the most amazing man, who loves the Lord and loves me. I could not ask for anything more. I became a Special Education teacher, a job that is extremely challenging but I love it.

Because of my great love for all children I have always imagined myself as a mother, and yes I imagined it in the more traditional way (pregnancy). I don't want to pretend that it was easy to find out I would not be able to have children, to give up on a dream of having a child grow inside me, to be with them from the moment of conception but God has taken me on a different route one that I can only assume is and will be just as amazing. I feel privelaged and honored.

I have been thinking so much about life and how important and fragile it is. I know that everything happens for a reason. I am sure this post is a bit random but I have been thinking about life a lot. I recently had a close friend that has been diagnosed with Colon Cancer and then yesterday my grandpa had a massive heart attack, and I continue to wait for my precious little girl to be put my arms. Please don't get me wrong I have wonderful life it just feel like a lot right now. I know that life is a journey I continue to fall back on Proverbs 3:5-6 "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will direct your paths."

7 comments:

joy said...

eager to hear how your Papa is doing. How are your cyst? Any pain lately?

joy said...

"God is able to make all grace abound to you,so that in all things, at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work."
2 Corinthians 9:8

Pretty hefty promise....But I believe it. especially as I've seen you grow so much in the last 5 years. All your feelings are definitely validated, but once she gets here- it will be worth the wait. I know it must be so hard- thinking of the phases that you are missing out on. But God must have a plan through this. Rely on his strength and grace.It's much easier to say, isn't it?

Kam said...

Our God is one who keeps His promises. Rest in that. It's so hard, I know. But He hasn't forgotten. He is crafting His story in you and it will be a beautiful read.

Hugs for you today~

Jay and Chandra and Penny Regan said...

I'm trusting that God will have the perfect plan for you. It's just so hard for us human beings when we're in that waiting stage. I can't wait to hear more about when you can go get your precious daughter.

grammasnotes said...

Rindi, I'm so VERY proud of you. You have grown strong! Remember Isaiah 40:30-31. "Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall. But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint." You're right: God has a more unique plan for you guys, and we're all learning from you!

Mireille said...

I just stumbled upon your blog and I was diagnosed with endometriosis about 12 years ago. We have adopted twins from Thailand at the age of 3 months. They will turn 8 next week! Good Luck with the whole process and the waiting game, it helps to read a lot about adoption to keep you distracted...

Shannon said...

Rindy - You and Chris amaze us. No one is more deserving than you two to become parents, and I can literally not imagine how you both must feel. Waiting for the gift that is Emery must be painful and we pray that she is here soon. Hang in there, we are thinking of you and your papa, too.