It has been two years since I was diagnosed with endometriosis, and two years since we started the adoption process. It has been an eventful road that God has led Chris and I down but also an amazing one.
As a child, you imagine what your life will look like; who will you marry, what will your children look like, what kind of career will you have. In all honesty, I did not imagine that this would be my life and this would be the journey that God would take Chris and I on. I married the most amazing man, who loves the Lord and loves me. I could not ask for anything more. I became a Special Education teacher, a job that is extremely challenging but I love it.
Because of my great love for all children I have always imagined myself as a mother, and yes I imagined it in the more traditional way (pregnancy). I don't want to pretend that it was easy to find out I would not be able to have children, to give up on a dream of having a child grow inside me, to be with them from the moment of conception but God has taken me on a different route one that I can only assume is and will be just as amazing. I feel privelaged and honored.
I have been thinking so much about life and how important and fragile it is. I know that everything happens for a reason. I am sure this post is a bit random but I have been thinking about life a lot. I recently had a close friend that has been diagnosed with Colon Cancer and then yesterday my grandpa had a massive heart attack, and I continue to wait for my precious little girl to be put my arms. Please don't get me wrong I have wonderful life it just feel like a lot right now. I know that life is a journey I continue to fall back on Proverbs 3:5-6 "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will direct your paths."